yamanai ame da neeee

an evaluation.
Thursday, October 18, 2007

I once had a classmate, called shirlin whom i couldn't understand at all. She always wanted to be better then others in aspects that seem really strange to me and they really are aspects which we are usually taught not to possess.

Like, how she was proud that she was fatter then me(i kid you not)
and how she always wanted to be lazier then the rest,
how she always had to be richer... (she said she has 15 phones, well.)
how she wanted to have the worst attitude.
Maybe she wanted to be known, like infamously.
i must say she made it quite well...

I was pretty damn glad she was out of my life when sec 2 ended.
and what struck my childish sec 2 mind was.. WHAT THE HELL?!

Now, her memory's back to haunt me.. in another form of course.
till now, i still cannot understand/comprehend/sympathise with such people.
Is it really worth being given attention because you are the dumbest person anyone has ever met? or that you are the person with the WORST sense of humour?
does anyone get any positive attention by picking on other people's lives???
and not to mention, pointing out how much lousier people did their work compared to you........ i don't think so.
what's worst is that,
shirlin had smth this person doesn't.
this person, she's really just acting and may i say, she's not very good at that. resulting in a kind of limbo.. and this, is why i feel any kind of pity for this person.
neither famous nor infamous. stuck in the middle, neither here nor there, overlooked, always receiving less attention.
a secret wish to be noticed, never to come true.
a simple wish to be important, overwritten by one's own actions.

well well well... maybe there's some kind of deeply inflicted old wound that causes heavy heavy inferiority complex, i don't know.
but its still not an excuse to cause so much irritation for others.

like i always say, some people will never know.
and this includes myself of course (i know, you know)

i just spoke to my bro bro.
i miss him la.. so sad.
wish he'd come back soon.

5:48 PM